Alive in the Un(Known)

This is obviously not a theory that works for everyone. This is the way I live. By the seat of my pants.

And when I thought I met a fellow traveller who did the same thing; I flew in feet first with my left foot being caught in a leg hold trap.

Hey, Reese! Thanks for letting me come on to strong with you. Now, I know how to conduct myself. You are going to be a strong woman.

The age thing should have clued me in. There is a World! of worlds of worlds of different between 21 and 32. Especially, the life I lead.

I'm a very intense person but I know when I broke someone's "booze". I have always known when to leave a room.

Thanks for reading what I had to write. I'm not obsessive, I just go where I'm needed. And if you don't need me there, then I'm not going. I will visit my Aunt, though.

And you cannot stop me!!!

Veered: A Collection of Pornographic Pictures Rendered into Something More Interesting

This is one called, "Orgy Dragon". This is called so, because I was promised by the porn gods of the internet that I would be a witness to a ten lesbian pornographic scene. Except! They were just standing around naked. It was the most unsex like orgy in my orgy viewing experience. So, I made something cool and I have no idea how I did it. I guess I wanted to make something interesting out of something that was offering false advertising.


This is one is called: "Negative Spider Seeking Optimistic Seamstress"

This is one is called: "The Cool Party People" I think I used four different pictures, combined them (also known as collage) and then used, ACDc 7 (it's hard to find a copy of this program. I crashed it, a lot by twisting with pictures so much that the system would overload. After every twist and turn and warp and color change I made and highlighted, I had to save it)

An Instance of Clarity

or,

"How I learned to leave everything I once loved behind and be alright with that. But upon seeing the bleak future of such a life, came back and reclaimed all that I love with a fierceness protected by righteous hellfire. Well, until the next time the shining, flaming shit of the world seemingly goes up with smoke."

Another round of reformatting Ron K. 7.5X. - This time, in better shape and with an all-intact memory... haunting me right now.

This is also like a...

bizarre personal video game where I get to time travel into my past to unravel past mysteries, solve them, prove they actually happened by calling people from that past to see if they are actually real.

Turns out, so far, they are.

But here's the crux of my thinking. I have more to add, but I want it to sound as cool as possible to let you know what kind of cool thoughts I have been thinking.

History is just a name we give something that happened in the linear past. Yet, history is all around us. Everyday we base decisions on past experiences and so from personal experience on a one to one basis we can apply these small interactions to bigger ones in history.

The same concept can be applied to big events in history and are reflected in our leaders decisions today. Hitler would have never gone through with the extermination of the Jews the way he did, if the Armenians hadn't gone through the theirs. So the logic of the holocaust is reaffirmed because the world did not care about the genocide of the Armenians, then therefore, no one would care about the systematic extermination of Jewish people. G.C.E. Please Skip ahead for a cogent explanation of my clarity for an instance.


[Digression - Hitler also used American Corporate slogans to gain a nationalistic foothold in Germany. Remember, before he was devil incarnate, he was a bureaucratically bent back fighter that 'won' his leadership through having a brute force that was too intimidating too a fragile post war World War 1 psyche, left criminally fragile by the victors of World War 1. But I regress...]


Back to the point - And, in this case, history broke this seemingly short cycle by being horrified by what the Nazis did. Thus breaking the cycle, albeit, once. Genocide has reappeared a few more times, especially in Africa. With half assed attempts by the world and way too late apologies. But at least, as well, they were acknowledged.

The world will get better little by little. Revolution, whether peaceful or violent or anything in between, is a violent action. And violent actions will always beget violent actions further down the road. Better for slow reform, heading in the right direction, then a rip through social fabric.

Having said that, Revolutions are absolutely necessary. People just have to do them right. Be prepared for the outcome, the outfall, and remember, to kill any dissidence early on in the revolution. Revolutions are not democratic. It's do or die. So, if you are not doing, then you should be dead or completely neutralized.

So basically, sometimes leaders do ugly things or out of character things for the greater goal of a slightly better world the next time around. Leaving many puzzled historians wondering why China conquered Tibet, while at the same time warning the Dali Lama to leave Tibet before they 'conquered' it.

Mountains, I guess. Good protection from invaders. What do you think?

Corporate Welfare

700 billion dollars for banks that ceased to function. Here is a link you can use to tell you why the government intervention isn't the problem but how it is being done.

http://www.thenation.com/doc/20081006/greider

An excerpt:

Let me be clear. The scandal is not that government is acting. The scandal is that government is not acting forcefully enough--using its ultimate emergency powers to take full control of the financial system and impose order on banks, firms and markets. Stop the music, so to speak, instead of allowing individual financiers and traders to take opportunistic moves to save themselves at the expense of the system. The step-by-step rescues that the Federal Reserve and Treasury have executed to date have failed utterly to reverse the flight of investors and banks worldwide from lending or buying in doubtful times. There is no obvious reason to assume this bailout proposal will change their minds, though it will certainly feel good to the financial houses that get to dump their bad paper on the government. (emphasis added)

Exactly what the US institutions need. Bailouts are one thing. Bailouts with just money thrown behind are stupidly criminal. Read the whole damn thing. It won't make you feel better and there is an off-chance you might vomit.

I nearly did.

People Suck

I don't ask for much in the way of niceties when I meet someone new. But saying thanks to someone who gives you something you have asked for is one of them.

Tonight, this bare assumption that I would receive thanks for anything I do for this particular person, someone who I just met, was laid to waste. I made a mental note of it and tried not to act like a dick about it.

That is all.

Movies I Would Like to Make: A Synopsis

Shitty Thoughts About You - A light hearted, yet mean spirited romantic comedy.

Killed by White People - six day long documentary about people throughout history that have been killed by white folk.

Viruses - About a sick man. A very, very sick man.

Post Modern Gun Owners - movie that depicts gun owners killing people in a recklessly but they are aware that they are behaving in a stereotypical redneck fashion and make fun of themselves in a dry, witty, urbane way.

Dead Doctor's Delivery - about an un-dead doctor going into stand-up comedy with terrible delivery. The drama is about his struggles. His painful, in minutiae struggle to perfect his delivery of jokes. Painful, in minutiae, delivery of un-dead observation styled jokes.

Citizen Krap - like Citizen Kane only the guy's name is changed to Krap. And then document the inherent downfall of someone with a lousy last name.

Hugo Chavez Overdrive - Hugo Chavez in a never seen before side of him. Driving Ferraris, drinking, snorting coke, snorting oil, solving crimes, and all the while governing Venezuela above reproach. He obviously now as acceded to US demands and sold out the poor people of his country. Mostly this movie is him driving and shooting disenfranchised poor people.

Ditch Livin' - independent style movie with bittersweet denouements about people talking, laughing, crying, and pathos; but everyone lives in the ditch.

Imagining Mohamed - a movie for infidels that imagine Mohamed. What he would have worn and looked like even though Islam strictly forbids images sculpted or drawn of the Prophet, they cannot take away the infidels powerful imagining of him.

PussyAssSex - porno with a wimpy guy having sex with various people; anal and vaginal. But done in a milquetoast style by the protagonist.

Deadly Till Dawn - Nocturnal lemurs run amok in this heady thriller about lemurs who are big and stuff and do things to people who are sleeping. Perhaps there be a scene where the head lemur is raping a hot chick.

People at Daily Kos are acting like asshats

Yup. Joe Biden's Obama's running mate. You should see all the crap that is being flung there, right now. Click on DKos blog link that I have. Go there now! If you read this to late, they have an awesome search engine. Search for Biden on the site, and it will take to some of the most moronic posts ever. I cannot express my opinion on there right now, without getting piled on. I'll wait till the stupidity dies.

And it's rife with stupidity. Lots of people concerned worried happy, overjoyed, laughing, crying, yawning, vomiting, diarrhea-verbal, crap, blah, blah, blah.

I would have picked Hillary Clinton. That's a one-two combination that couldn't be beat. Turns out though, they probably wouldn't work well together. Also, she didn't want the job. So...

Anyway, had to vent. Normally that site is not so caca coo coo. But this election year...