I'm Caving in.

No more elections for this motherfucker. Sick of it. Sick of it all.

Obama/Biden will win. You'll see. In a hilarious fashion only known to me and a few others. eh he he he he ha ha ha ha ha!

People Who Have Actually Experienced a Drug, Know more than those who haven't

First, I would like to address this ongoing question of my sanity or mental well being. All work and no play make O'Really... ah shit, I got nothing.

I am going to be addressing a subject that will make people uncomfortable and you might blanche at the first sentence after the fold. It will shock everyone even the people involved with taboo subject.

Is everyone ready?

Crystal Methamphetamine is a useful drug. Though it is psychologically addicting like any drug.

How are you doing?

Take a deep breath.

There might be some anger or feelings of dismissal

I bet most of you do not believe because medical studies show...

Any medical study that says Crystal Methamphatemine is an addictive drug didn't even bother to properly and thoroughly test the effects of it.

Right now, I am going to let you walk through this. I am not going to bombard you with this information because this is a community service. Don't worrry that I'm using any trick or lie to tell you something I really believe in. But for that to happen, you have to read more.

Now, right, how do I beat this scientific study? How would one go about it? Well, in this case it is through one who takes crystal meth everyday of his life and has observed its effects on lives on peoples.

Me. Crystal meth is a drug of moderation.

Eeerrrrrch! Slam!!!

If I had continued, there is a good chance that anything I say is forfeit. So, I'm switching gears and showing you the basic crystal meth economy model. What better place to look at all I have said then the beginning. So lets start with the basic elements of what crystal meth and it's basic appendages.

Well, lets look at the crystal meth lab. A highly dangerous place, that needs supervision less it explode. Interesting? Wouldn't there have been developed a safer place? Especially because soooo much money is involved. Oh, never mind, crystal meth is the cheapest hard drug where users don't use that much because it is extremely powerful and because of that power people moderate its use so that they can get the most of their drug value. That's right, crystal meth is made the way it is to last the longest and give you the most value for your dollar. Hey crystal meth sounds like a discount store. And so obviously this is a scourge to be gotten rid of because any one who deals crystal meth is not going to see that same client for another week. I remember in some movie, some book, some newspaper, some mafia movie, that dealers always want to move on the up and up?

"Oh my fucking god, crystal meth dealers and the people who make it are the stupidest fucking dealers in the world. How are they ever going to make more money?"

- If anyone doesn't understand, for even an instance, that that above paragraph wasn't sarcastic, you now have to go back to the top of this bulletin and start from the beginning. Oh, don't think I don't know who winced because they didn't know that was sarcasm. Good, none of you tried to pull one over me.

I know I just joked to for you to take some time to absorb it. But that was just there to confuse your brain, so that your mind is taken off the subject matter. And because your mind is no longer engaged...

you will be truly relaxed. This is a lot to take in all at once. If you feel overwhelmed by the knowledge, take a break. Take a deep breath. If you need to think about what I just said, take your time. What I'm writing is very difficult to understand because society doesn't like things it doesn't understand fully so they make it illegal so that they do not have to think this unknown thing is out there and makes them feel ill at ease.

Society, in this case, reacts correctly. When something unknown enters society and you have no idea what it will do, you cordon it off block, make it punishable so that their is less of this unknown thing that may or may not cause scary things. The unknown is fear inducing. And do you know who enter the unknown, who face down scary things, and they face these scary things down, they get hurt, sick, lost, reckless, twisted, awful.

btw, I have given crystal meth to a 15 year old girl. I was 23. A full 8 years older. And later on that night, it was just me and her in our friends house in the living room. All alone. There would be nothing to stop me from taken advantage of her. And oh, she liked me and if we did have sex it would have been consensual. But compromising my moral integrity is never an answer. No matter what the temptation, or what is being offered freely. There is no way in hell I am going to have sex with a 15 year old girl. - a beat - though, at 23, I might have had sex with a seventeen year old girl but only if she was more mature than her age. But that would have been an unlikely scenario as well. I like my women assertive, straight forward, and feminine.

Oh noes! The drug has control over everything about meeeeeee!

let's us all take a break. stretch your neck. Or if you need to forget all this heady stuff just open up another tab, hit that porn bookmark, and forget this for awhile.

Done?


Of course, I don't give a shit if you believe me or not. It happens to be true due to my experience and many others and not some sermonizing, demonizing bullshit that was created out of a vacuum. And save your half truths for others who do not know what they are talking about.

Remember people, I'm delusional. And... who knows, maybe someone will tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right and it won't make a lick of difference cause I found god.

No one believes my words until they hear me speak

or other some bullshit that people add emphasis and connotation to words that mean exactly what they mean. And if this applies to you, don't comment. I happen to no more about shit than you, simply based on my varied life experience. I experience emotional pain on a far deeper level than most people. And I'm not bragging. I wish I didn't. I'm probably delusional, mentally ill, crazy, addicted to something, on something. That must be the answer to what I write.

Anyway, I'll leave you with this.

The knowledge I impart,
with knowledge you depart.

You Can't Stop Progress

I've been doing a lot of thinking today and I came to a realization, a truth if you will, about society.

You can't have a society without the dregs of society. There will always be street prostitution, there will always be drugs, there will always be criminals doing crimes whether the media reports is or not. Crime is not dictated by the media, a politician, a demagogue, a police officer, or the elderly.

You also cannot eradicate terrorism or evil or inconvenient truths. There will always be a percentage of us that do not comply with society at all. "They fell through the cracks, they never belonged, they were lost nearly from the start."

Society's problem and solution is always trying to fill the cracks with some concrete crackdown toughness. The War on Drugs. The War on Terrorism. Zero Tolerance. Three Strikes Your Out. The War on Evil. The War on Crime. Instead of "tough new cracking skulls" policies, society needs to show compassion and understanding but with a firm but not too firm grip on limiting the always present ills of society.

For an example of society implementing bludgeons to fill the crack... In every fucking speech George Bush makes he mentions some inane shit about eradicating "Extreme Islamists" or eradicating "terror in our time" or "destroying evil, wherever evil is." You cannot possibly do this. Ever. All of society, in all its power, and if in one moment we could combine our goodwill and address all of society's ills, we would fail.

Society having its dregs is a feature of society that will never see its end.

What kind of Utopian hell would we create in its absence?

Movies that will Inevitably be made

Fuck Death Argh Kill - Self explanatory.

A Selection of George Bush's Speeches during his Presidency, 2001-2009 - An ill conceived conceptual comedy compromised of reactions from people groaning, shaking their head in wonder, and averting their gaze from the Television or computer monitor lest they have to watch a grown man embarrass himself so badly.

Jack Smithing: Representative of Congress - About an uber rich member of the US congress, just like nearly all of them, stays uber rich all during his conflict of interest free years as a congressperson. Roger Ebert described this movie as the type of movie you "want to throw shit at the screen," and "wonder aloud that the country you live in is a corrupt, fucking disgrace."

Cocaine is Awesome - A propaganda piece by Cocaine Lobbyists. It extols the virtues of Cocaine use while downplaying the negative side effects or tries to make the lesser negative side effects as the only problem with Cocaine addiction. Like: "... and the worst thing about the aftermath of a 3 day Cocaine Fiesta is... nose bleeds!" Then the hollow laughter of the soulless.

Braying Donkeys - All about the stupid people who do stupid things underneath my second story apartment window. All they do is talk loud and about nothing. They never say anything interesting ever! And when I try to follow what they are talking about, I get lost in the banality of it all. They speak a dialect of English whose intricacies I have not fully explored. The inane dialect of the English language. Ya hear that, space fillers!!!

Requited Love - A (sigh) heartwarming movie that interweaves the lives of couples who have found the right person in the form of their best friend. Fuck this movie! Sorry, by all accounts, it's lovely.

Movies I Would Like to Make: More...

Bloodless Coup - Political comedy-drama where everyone gets fed up with the sitting President and takes over the 'White House." Could be any country. ahem.

Cactus in Your Armpit - this is mostly from a hallucination I wrote down. Something to do with not putting a cactus under your armpit and teaching one's sister German from a five inch German to English bible. But by doing so, you are making her retarded. Pathos will inevitably ensue.

This last one is more serious: I call it Slow Hole to China. Here is an excerpt:

... The company could afford only 34 days off a year for any employee. Though, Cassie went missing for more than a month, she was actually doing company business. That particular bit of business was for her to set up a "hole to China" office in the federal government super structure. What she actually built, did something else entirely. It would periodically, through its scan resistant programming, plant false information. That false information, always starting at infinitesimal, slowly over 4 to 4.3 years to disintegrate the system. After that, all the work that had been done with the system it will amount to absolutely nothing. So even the accurate information inputted into the system is now wrong. Because Cassie and the company would be obviously implicated, they made sure Cassie only supervised the physical construction of it, not its software or how or when and why it got its information. What the Federal Government will never find out is that the physical construction has the built in 'infinitesimal' wrong information. So the structure itself provides the 'hidden' built in 'software.' Which is actually hardwired and not software at all but a feature of the structure, "the Slow Hole to China."

As soon as other software gets uploaded and the system implemented, the problem* will be there. Right at the same time the first button is pressed to implement the government sanctioned software. So, even if they discover it, right away, they will think its the software. So, they will try new software and again the problem recognizes the difference and now, will 'find' a blind spot to start its unraveling of the system.

So, what do you think? The last one is a work in progress and looks to be either short story material or even novel or novella material. Who knows?

Campaign for Prez!

It's going great out here! The tight knit group of campaigners and volunteers I have working for me are the cream of the crop. The best of the best and also, well, the easiest people in the world to convince they are doing something great for humankind.

The suckers.

But that's another story. I'm just going to come right out and say it. I need campaign funds. Neeeeed! The top runners, McCain/Palin, and Obama/Biden, are raising hundreds of millions. Now, I'm not asking for that kind of money. It would be nice to say, "we have hundreds of dollars in the campaign coffers," but we can't because it would be a lie.

And I think that's a sad reflection on you, my supposed supporters. So get up there and pony up the cash. Have fundraisers and tell people it's for sick, dying kids in Africa. 'Cause in a way, it is. I plan, if I get elected, to help out the African nations who are suffering the worst with a AIDS Knowledge program and getting other rich people to fund that program so that the government is not the only entity picking up this enormous bill. So, in other words, technically, you are not lying when you say and do this. Please do this!

I know a lot of you have been clamoring for me to explain my Fuck IT policy. Well, in case you haven't looked at the other contenders, they're not telling you about their policies either. Ok, some, but not too much. Fuck IT will be implemented in all government agencies where applicable. It will also go by the code name: Why Not? There, you happy? Damnable nitpickers!

One more thing, before I go. Man, this election season is long. If this were any other democracy, the campaign wouldn't last more than three months and more likely, two. Fuck this forever campaigning shit.

Oh, well. I've let you know what's inside my mind. Sorry for the great distance from the last campaigning post to this one. I was... busy.

Remember, to vote. Oh, yeah, Canada is gearing up for an election of the Federal kind. It ends before the American one. That's a gas.